when just trees won't do

in desperate need to bake

i've been in quite a sober mood lately and i don't blame the capricious weather for it. nor the finals. it's just me. i don't really know why but i'm sure it's just me.

i'm just back from an evening walk around the neighborhood and i think my mood hasn't really improved. just now i sat on a swing at the playground and i thought hard. well, not that hard but hard enough. i just needed to clear my head up and get my focus back on track. however, it was to no avail.

what really did pop into my head while i was thinking hard was a cake from the big book of baking. i saw it when i flipped through the book yesterday and i just knew that i have to bake this. just the description of the cake made my mouth water and oh, the picture. in short, it was another sudden crave of mine that i just have to fulfill.

it's a two-layered walnut-coffee cake with a rich, strong-coffee buttercream in between, and spread over the top of the cake. swoons~

i'm short of just one more ingredient, which is the muscovado sugar (if i'm not mistaken) and that aside, i'm all set. maybe i'll try to find the muscovado sugar on monday, that is if i even go to uni. i bet i will because i really am eager to try my hands at something out of the big book of baking. and of course, once i've tried something from the book i would surely post an entry of it here but the only problem is... i'm not really sure if i can put the recipes up because it's from a book and what's the point of selling a book when you find other people posting your recipes (that you sold) up on the net? then other people won't bother buying your book will they?

i don't know =_="

when i was on the swing, i found myself thinking. i really love to bake. yes, i do. but just now, when i was cooking, it was all a mess. and it didn't really go well. and what more, my hands smelt really... ugh. they smelt of oil, cumin, more oil... in short, they didn't smell good.

but when i bake on the other hand, my hands smell really nice. they smell all buttery, sugary, and just... sweet. i love it. i love how my hands smell after i bake and it just makes me smile if nothing else. it's another one of my life's simple pleasures. just like how i smile and feel the relieve of letting out the urge to just jump whenever i jump up, trying to reach for some leaves hanging on branches of trees by the road.

maybe cooking and baking just don't go hand in hand at times i guess.

ugh, i'm such a bad cook ;(

life is beautiful, i know. but sometimes i forget just how beautiful life is. maybe i need someone to always be there and remind me of it. maybe. perhaps.

oh by the way, i've just watched julie and julia and i think it's a great movie. pray that i'll get a husband as great as theirs, they're so sweet.

baker at heart,

chikabaker ♥